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Danielle's Life
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| Once again, it's been freaking forever since I wrote anything.
But this time, there has been such a dramatically drastic change in my life that I cannot really go into paragraphs of detail. It's just too much.
So...I'll highlight everything.
That whole essay on how things were totally over with that guy....the subject of most of my more recent poetry....and I believe a few previous LJs.....yeah.....I always speak to soon.
In short, he came back...again....I took him back.....again.....and it actually appeared to be going somewhere for once..............yeah, to the backseat of his car. -_- Whatever, I asked for it.....no, it didn't get that far, but dangerously close.
Maybe if it weren't for the fact it would have been in the backseat of a car, and the fact that we had only been talking again for a week, and the fact that it wasn't all he talked about, and the fact that we made out more than we ever really talked or spent real time getting ot know each other, or the fact that he had no problem feeling up on me in public letting the world know I was his personal whore, or the fact that he had no problem to flirt with one of my best friends right in front of me, or the fact that my forbidden relationship with him was destroying my relationship with my family and close friends.... MAYBE it would have been something I would actually have felt okay wth.....maybe........but it was just all wrong. He wanted one thing, I wanted more.
So, I broke it off. He got a little emotional, but I think he was just frustrated.
He was hott, so it was hard to let him go. He has tried to come back a few times already and I scared him off with the admission that I am looking more for a husband than anything, hehe....his reaction was priceless....the stammering, the ensuing speech on how outdated that is....on how that can't really be what I am looking for....how very very restrictive that is.....it was kinda cute, but he knew the game was over. I offered him my friendship, foolishly perhaps, and we have had 2 semi-decent conversations since.
Whatever.
The details of the whole things are just too complicated....and to keep it all chronological would force me to write a book, and I just don't have it in me.
But, just to put things into perspective, my involvement with him indirectly caused 6 good friends of mine to get into a horrific car accident. That's all I will say about that. His response to the whole thing kind of made it clear that my decision to break things off with him a week later were right, if the previous reasons didn't already.
My life had fallen into a nice routine......get up, study, do some chores, expect a call from Anna to go out and drive aroudn in her new car for the evening...get some Jamba Juice or Starbucks...walk around the mall for a few hours....pick up another friend and see a movie.
Tuesday nights: karaoke at TGI Friday's.
I loved it...through it, I made some awesome friends....and I had something distracting me from my tumultuous involvement with El Diablo.
Then, I get up the nerve one Tuesday, the only night of the week I got to see the guy anymore as the parents were firmly against it, to end things.
He walks in the restaurant in tears......darnit........the nerve was gone.......that night while listening to him vent his rarely-expressed emotions at the Starbucks, we hear the crash.....they were coming to see us....we saw the car, mangled......friends on the ground in stretchers.....one was pronounced dead for 10 seconds......he grabbed my hand, the break up postponed another week.
The ensuing events really changed my life forever.....I was still going out everyday, but to the hospital, not to the mall, or Jamba Juice, or karaoke.....
I still got to see my friends, but laying in hospital beds, one in a coma.... | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | Rocketship - shiny toy guns | | Subject: | *Holding my breath* | | Time: | 08:36 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/scared.gif) nervous |
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| I feel like I just stripped myself in front of a crowd.
Only God knows what will come of this..........
But a part of me adores this.....
For so long I've prided myself in the art of silence.
Sometimes it just feels so good to finally break it. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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It's been quite a while since I've posted anything.
My life has been so full lately, (for the good and the bad) that I haven't had time to actually sit down and truly take time to reflect.
Now I shall....it's 8:15 in the morning, everyone else is still sleeping,and I have some caffeine going through my system so I think I should update while I can.
If I were to cover everything that's been going on I'd have to write a novel, and it would stir up a lot of dormant emotions that I do not wish to awaken again.
In these past weeks, I have discovered who my true friends are, once again.....this revelation seems to go in cycles, as seasons change, and people change....for now, I am mostly happy.....some old friendships that I was afraid I'd lost seem to be restored, or at least going on that path.....some however have seemed to fade forever, but this is life. I wish them the best, that's all I can do.
Also in these past weeks, I have discovered more about myself.
I have realized that it doesn't matter how much weight you lose, how nice your hair looks, how many friends and aquaintences you have........none of these things can provide happiness when your view of yourself is negative. You must change from within first....and then life can begin to fulfill and satisfy.
This, I'm working on :]
I have rediscovered my purpose for living, which is more freeing than anything.
And I have renewed a certain vow I made as a child. I had a dream that allowed me to see that I have been allowing too many thieves into my heart...and that I need to be patient and allow the right thing to come when the time is right.
I would never have guessed that one of the most emotionally tumultuous periods of my life, as intense as it was short lived, would be the catalyst for such an amazing process of self discovery and devlopmental progress, emotionally, psychologically, spiritually, etc.
I dare not go into all the details......not just yet.....as I said, I'm still putting the pieces back together, that were irrationally torn apart these past few weeks.....but I will say that even what is planned for bad can be turned around for good in the end.
For some time, I was being lured back into the darkness of my old ways, my old life.....a life so detached from me at this point that I marvel in amazement at my transformation.....and for a time, I almost fell again, right back in.....but thank God, and I mean that literally, I was rescued before I could make that awful mistake......
Though it was painful, I was reminded why I left that lifestyle, that mindset of death, in the first place......these reminders are often extremely uncomfortable, but I'm thankful for them.
This may sound more cryptic than anything, but later on when I have some closure I can speak more freely about it. For now, I just need to write this out....it's one step closer to being free of this.
I am done for now....gotta get ready for church.....I have an entire song to sing solo today, and to be quite honest, don't feel ready for it.....but hopefully all will go well.....I think I will come home as early as possible and just go back to sleep.
Have a brilliant day, everyone <3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
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Yesterday was the funeral.
There were far more people there that I didn't know than there were people I did.
Of course my cousins were there...my uncle's three daughters.
My two aunts, my grandmother, my guy cousin, my uncle's ex wife, his widow, etc etc.
It was a Jewish ceremony which was interesting.
I got way more teary than I expected.....especially when my cousin, his eldest daughter got up and spoke a tearful eulogy.
I know it was my uncle's funeral, but most of the time, I was thinking about my father.
He died when I was three years old.....even then, I hardly had much of a bond with him....he was a troubled man.....fatherhood really scared him, and with neurotic tendencies he tried to distance himself from it all the while loving me very much. He and my mother had a strange relationship that was more love/hate than anything, and his behavior tended to keep people away.
Even still, I miss him so much.....every time I see a picture of him, I see me.......and I begin to cry.
Even though he is no longer here, he is a part of me that I feel I have been denied.
When my cousins were crying over their dead father, I thought to myself, I never got to have that experience.
I never got to mourn my father's death because I was a toddler when he died...I never got to know him...
Maybe that's a foolish sentiment.....had I gotten to know him and he died then, it would have been terrible.....I'm not exactly wishing I had that pain.....but I feel like I was deprived of something.
I love my stepdad a lot, he's a good person, and a good dad......but I just wish I had my daddy...
I don't know if I speak of illusions, but these are in fact my feelings.
As they lowered my uncle's casket into the ground, at the same cemetery in which my father was buried just yards away, the Rabbi spoke some final words....a few of them being condolences to me, "the daughter of his late brother, Harold James Selig" and that's when I started to actually weep.
I couldn't keep the tears from falling.
In retrospect, I feel that this experience almost, in some way, gave me a chance to mourn my own father's death....something I had never gotten to do.
I was young when that tragedy happened.....but there was still a wound inflicted that has been with me since. Yesterday was a major step in the healing process.
It rained all day....very appropriate weather I thought. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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So, what's been up with me?
Let's see...
Mostly same ol'....
Sleep, school, clean, exercise most of the week....
Friday, practice...
Sunday, church...
--My best friend and I became friends again after I was sure we were through forever.
It's even better the second time around.
--I'm pretty sure a certain someone doesn't like me......I was so sure he did....I was so certain.....it makes me doubt myself and feel like an idiot.
--Josh came in and out of my life again like clockwork.....same pattern......tell you a bunch of stuff to get your hopes up and then do the vanishing act....please, I am so over that.
--A certain someone is trying to be all friendly with me again. Problem is, he finds it very cute to ignore and "forget" some crappy things he's done to me.....and also finds it very cute to suggest I'm the one that should apologize for ending things. I'm giving him a hard time with it, but I think he needs to know that there are lines, and once you cross certain lines, that's it..........at least until said line-crossing-individual feels regret and tries to make things right, instead of expecting a forgiving person such as myself to simply be the doormat every time.
--I have come to the realization that most of the people I considered my best friends are phony, fake, and conceited......they only want to hang with me when there is nothing else to do....they have new friends, different lives, and really I could care less.....I've tried to keep friendships going with these individuals, and it's come to no avail....I'm done trying.....have fun with your new friends and new lives guys.....just quit being phony with me.
--I also realize that most people in my life, just generally speaking, distant family, aquaintences, friends, etc, they could care less if I live or die. I can count on one hand the truly special people who care that I have in my life....I'm so thankful for them, cuz true friendship seems to be almost nonexistant anymore. Oh well.
--Last but not least, my uncle died last night. Got the call at midnight. Heart attack....you'd think it would be the cancer that killed him.....but obviously he was too heavy on the cocaine....plus, he had a severe mental breakdown. I will be going to a funeral this week.
That's all for now. I'll update later. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | -_- | | Time: | 07:45 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/disappointed.gif) disappointed |
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| It was "like at first chat"...
I am seriously wondering why he ever came back. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Yesterday was a pretty good day.
It didn't start off too well though...
*Attempted* to sleep on the couch Saturday night, but ended up sleeping on the floor cuz I kept falling asleep and waking up due to discomfort.
Sleeping on the floor was actually more comfortable, which I find weird....but I still got only an hour of sleep......30 minutes of it being half-sleep.
Got up at 6:30 for church anyway. I had a solo to perform......an entire song.....wasn't feeling prepared so I almost felt like not going at all.
Dacivian also told me that we would be going to the beach afterward, so I had to get all prepared for that.
As it all turned out, while I felt nervous and uncomfortable prior to my solo, I felt pretty good once I was done. I didn't do as well as I personally felt I could, but early in the morning has never been good for me. I felt I did decent enough though, and everyone liked it. So that was nice.
We ended up not going to the beach afterward, but instead saw Spider-man 3 which was 100x better than I anticipated it to be. I already want to see it again, and just might.
Now I am awaiting with great expectation, Pirates of the Carribean 3. Something tells me it will amaze, just as the previous 2.
PS:I still like this certain person...
PPS: He's back.....and I'm confused, but not all as tormented as I was before.
~*~Danielle~*~ | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So I:
-started falling for him to soon.....way too soon.
-met someone new...and oh so nice....so much like me.
-got too lax with my diet/exercise routine...getting back on it before it's too late.
-saw my grandmother in the rehab a few times.
-went back to church after a 15 days of Daci being out of town.
-realized 100% what I want to do with my life.
-was happy.
-was sad.
-was angry.
-was apathetic.
It's as if these days have passed by in a blur. I feel like life is the same, but very different.
I feel disoriented, though not depressed....
Optimistic, though not expecting anything...
Clear-head, but asking so many questions....
I only let you go because you walked away.
I only stopped caring because you did first.
I watched Dirty Dancing......and I realize that if you take it seriously, it's still as awesome as the first time. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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The uncertainty that makes life dark....
And the pleasant surprises along the way that make it beautiful.
It's okay to cry....because when someone picks you up from your low place of grief, it's all the sweeter. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today is a good day!
Today is a new start!
Today is the day everything falls into place!
Have a wonderful day everyone!
~Peace. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Enya - Carribean Blue | | Time: | 09:28 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/bored.gif) bored |
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| Sunday ended up being alright after all.
It turned out that Dacivian and her family forgot to change their clocks, so we ran an hour behind schedule.
We knew we were going to miss worship so we just dressed in jeans and got to service really late.
Dacivian was supposed to come over that day, but since we were running so late it kinda messed up our schedule so we decided another day would be better.
We went to Publix after, faked a cat fight, seeing as this is one of our favorite ways to amuse ourselves nowadays, and then went to Steve's for lunch.
Next Sunday it's baptism, and then to the beach after church!
I'm going clothes shopping either tomorrow or Thursday so maybe I will be able to get some cute beachy attire.
This week seems to be going so fast and so slow at the same time.
Friday can't come soon enough.........Gladis might be coming over to spend the day, and then it's worship practice at 8, so yeah. I'm looking forward to it.
Hmmmm, ya know....now that it comes to mind, I just yesterday found out why things ended with Josh so quickly..............sad.............now I almost wish he'd come back around and say hi.........he seemed so perfect for me.......but idk want to be deceived. At least I know it had nothing to do with me. That provided a little healing.
Ummm, what else?
Not much, really.
I am about to go workout, shower, iron, and all that...my regular evening routine.
I am so bored it's not funny and it kinda makes me sad.
I wish I could just go out with friends at this hour.......but I don't have any friends that can :(
Well I'm off. I don't remember anything else. When I do, or when something interesting happens I'll update.
Ciao.
P.S. My Super Ex-Girlfriend was a horrendously poor excuse for film-making....ugggh. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Ahhhh!
I have to be ready in like an hour.....
My alarm never went off.
I totally had it set for 6:00, and it is stell set on 6:00am, but hasn't gone off at 8:30!!!
And I have nothing to wear today.
I hope Dacivian calls soon cuz I am gonna beg her to let me borrow a shirt of hers.
I could kick myself!
.......But I won't.
The caffeine is now hitting my blood stream and I feel too happy :)
Anyway.
Yeah I gotta go get ready.
Will update later.
Ciao. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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Ya know I have been thinking...
When I turn 18 I should join some underground community that sleeps during the day, drinks coffee to wake up in the afternoon and stays awake all night long drinking coffee all the way through.
It would also be awesome if said community involved dancing, loud techno music, poetry readings, and karaoke. :]
And if one of those does not exist, well, I think I just might create one.
Cuz I can't sleep anymore.
I haven't gotten to sleep before 3:30 am once in the past week and a half.
And it seems that I am the odd one out......there's just no one to talk to, nothing to do, no good late night tv to watch at that hour.
So if I can't find some awesome coffee-drinking-undeground-beatnik-revivalist-night-club to join, I think I'm just gonna end up living this way for the rest of my life.
......And I realize now just how ridiculously melodramatic all that was.
*Subject Change*
I literally spent all day creating a huge playlist on projectplaylist.....searching for all my favorite songs.
It was such an emotional journey, really, reliving hundreds of intense memories as I listened to song after song, each attached to a thought, a memory, an image that still resonates deep within me to this very day.
It was as if I were in a trance all day.....I will be putting it up on my myspace soon once I fill all 75 songs :p
Speaking of music, I cannot tell you just how beautiful opera and ambient can be.
Enya for instance.......she blows me away.
I am beginning to feel that flame of desire for a vocal career ignite once again.
I just wonder how I will go about getting there.
Hmmm.
Anyway.
It's late.
I still have to do a quick workout and then shower before bed.
Tomorrow is church and I will need to be up early.
Dacivian is coming over after so that will be fun.
Anything else?
Not really.
Just that I love life.
I don't love everything about life, I don't like everything that goes on in life.....and I sure as hell am not deceived into believing that "it's all good" in the world.....but I have realized something.......I can't change the world, but I can change myself and that is a beautiful thing.
Lovelovelove and goodnight :)
P.S.
Yes, I do like.................
Heh.
Feelings are such fickle creatures, aren't they? | | comments: Leave a comment |
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Personality Type Report for Danielle
Your Personality Preferences
INTROVERT
While you may not be anti-social, you do need (and deserve) your private time and space to retreat from the world. Unlike extroverts, you need to develop a concept of the world or some aspect of it before experiencing it. Too much socializing may sap your energies. Your energies are derived from exploring the inner world of ideas, impressions and pure thought.
INTUITIVE
While you do process information through your senses you add a twist to your processing by relying on intuition and serendipity. You look for undercurrents of meaning and abstractions in what you experience physically. You do not just see things just as they are, but as what they could be. While you may rely on common sense at times, you trust inspiration far more.
JUDGING
You like decisions to be made as soon as possible. You are not comfortable with loose ends and like to see conflicts resolved as soon as possible. You have a preference for a well-structured, orderly lifestyle with few surprises. It may not be all that important who makes the decisions that gets things done as long things do get done. You take commitments very seriously. While you are not inflexible, you do like to stick to a plan once it is set into motion.
FEELING
You make decisions subjectively based upon your values and what is important to you. How people will be affected by your decisions is important to you. You are likely to make decisions based upon what you feel is acceptable and agreeable rather than what is logical. Your truths are founded in your values and those of the society you live in. It is important to remember that we are discussing how you evaluate data and make decisions, and that you rely on your feelings to do so in no way implies you are overly emotional.
Your Personality Type:
Introvert/Intuitive/Feeling/Judging
Sometimes you may seem to have a mystical quality about you. You are very sensitive and deep. You place a high value on integrity. Your inner life is well very well developed. You are an idealist capable of very creative, original thought. You are gentle, compassionate and enjoy your time alone. You need both inner and outer harmony. When reaching for a goal you are very determined and persevering.
In relationships you are very tender and gentle. You have a very strong need to create a pleasant home environment. You do not make commitments lightly, but once you do you put all your energies into it. You understand your feelings and are able to share them with those you care for. At times you may find it difficult to balance your need to retreat into your inner-world and your need to be with those you care for. You can be very playful and fun when you feel at ease. You need harmony in your intimate world. Conflict can upset you to the point of making you sick.
Famous People of Your Type:
Aristophanes, Chaucer, Goethe, Robert Burns, Martin Van Buren, Jimmy Carter, Nathaniel Hawthorne, Mother Teresa of Calcutta, Fred McMurray, Shirley Temple Black, Martin Luther King, Jr., Shirley McClain, Piers Anthony, Michael Landon, Tom Selleck, Oprah Winfrey, John Katz, Angela Lansbury, Richard Gere, Billy Crystal, Carrie Fisher.
Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:
Architect, artist, clergy, consultant, editor, musician, philosopher, doctor, programmer, researcher, scientist, teacher, and writer. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Kate Havnevik - "Timeless" | | Subject: | 17! | | Time: | 01:04 am |
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| Okay it's time for an update!
I am now 17 years old ^_^
Don't "feel" much different but it's cool being only one year away from 18.
I had a nice birthday dinner down at the grandmother's.
It was one of the loveliest days of my life....I truly felt so loved.....not only by my family, but my friends too.
From morning to night it was a great day, and the best, most meaninful, birthday so far.
Next week is shopping to wrap up the birthday.
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Tonight was practice at church.
......except there was no practice seeing as Mr. Team Leader couldn't call us to let us know :)
Oh well.
Looking forward to Sunday.
Daci is coming over after church! :D
And perhaps Gladis and a few others will be coming over during the week.
We'll see how that goes.
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Do I like..................?
I don't know.
I thought I did, now I am not so sure.
Hmmmm.
Oh well :]
Friendship would be nice anyway.
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I am quite bored, so I will probably head off to bed and play some video games to make me sleepy.
Tomorrow is cleaning day, blah.
May go downstairs for a swim and tan though.......I'll take some Starbucks that I got for my birthday down with me ^_^
Anyway night, all!
Will update in the near future.
Ciao. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I feel much better this morning :]
A certain feeling I was feeling turned out to be quite fleeting and is now gone.
Lol, that was interesting alliteration ^_^
Of course a certain other feeling is still there.
I just don't want it to ever be known and ruin a friendship that would mean much more to me than anything else at this point.
Btw,
I love Gladis.
She's a sweetheart.
I feel like I have said that before recently.
I probably did lol, but it remains true.
We are gonna hang out soon.....it would be a lovely birthday present.
Well Dacivian is going to be calling any moment now.
I will update later....
Ciao. ^_^ | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | -_- | | Time: | 09:15 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/crappy.gif) crappy |
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| Well I went to Unity Day today.....
And now I am seriously stressing about something and I hate it!
I am so like........*sigh*
It doesn't matter I guess.
Blah.
Tomorrow is church.
Goodnight
Edit:
Ok, as much as I feel like being all cryptic and everything as I feel like crap, I will give some detail. Today was too fun to not talk about a little.
Well, I met Anna, Leo, and Leo's friend Alex there.
Alex seemed really cool.
The four of us hung out at the bleachers for the most part in the earlier part of the day.
Then Gladis came.
She's a sweetheart, I tell ya. If I weren't feeling so uncomfortable about something I would have been more huggy and talky with her.
Dacivian couldn't come and Gia wasn't there as far as I could tell.
So the now five of us walked to BK and all I got was a coffee.
Leo paid for it all.
How sweet.
We walked back and it was dark. I loved it.
WE sat on the grass for the concert and played a little truth or dare.
Once the fireworks started we all layed on the grass.
Well Anna was laying on Alex, I was laying on Anna, and Leo was laying on me.
I'm starting to think something..................
Anyway, after the fireworks I went home and now here I am!
Those 5 hours seem to have gone so quickly.
I miss everyone already and wanna do that again.
But I am still upset about that something.....but that I will keep personal.
I do realized I have to get out of my shell a little bit to see if I can do something about this.
I'm a little too interested this time around to be apathetic and patient haha.
Let's see how this goes. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Unity Day | | Time: | 01:03 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/chipper.gif) chipper |
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| It's Unity Day.
I'm going.
Dacivian won't pick up her phone tho, so I don't know if she's going.
I got Anna to start playing Diner Dash ^_^
I have to call Leo in a bit to see how that goes.
[I am talking to him online now...he is going]
Anna might be going now, tho, so that's cool.
And I have been informed that I neglected to mention I will also be seeing Gia at Unity Day also. :)
How long is uncertain, but at least I will get to say hello.
I will call Gladis in a bit too to see if she can go.
And that's it :]
Ummm, I am gonna have to get myself some iced coffee in just a few minutes and start getting ready.
Later! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Went to practice tonight.
I had a fun time.
Even though I was a tad anxious about something....
Something I wish I didn't feel.
I almost didn't go, but I am glad I did and that everything is okay.
Daci and I danced after and just had fun.
We went to Pollo Tropical after and all I had was yuca. I love it so so much, you just don't know.
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Tomorrow is Unity Day! :D
As it stands I'm meeting Leo at the library and we are gonna walk from there to the field.
I invited Dacivian, Gladis, and Anna along, but Anna can't go, boo hoo, and I have yet to confirm with Gladis.
Dacivian also has to confirm with me tomorrow.
Because of tomorrow's event and for a few other reasons Oleta has been rescheduled for next Saturday instead.
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Anything else?
Well yes...
My 17th birthday is Tuesday and I'm kinda looking forward to it :)
17 is my favorite number for some reason...
An odd little tidbit of information for you: I usually don't feel the age I become on my birthday.......last year I did not feel 16....the year before I did not feel 15......but for some strange reason, I feel 17. Sometimes I forget that I am still 16 lol. Interesting.
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Church is Sunday.....yay....looking forward to that.
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And I have decided to get my hair cut.
Don't know when.
But I want it cut.
My hair is down to my extreme lower back now, and I love it, but it's so hard to maintain.
I hear differing opinions on the matter from person to person, but I can always grow it back.
I'm thinking shoulder length, layered, with bangs would be nice.
I could straighen it easily and can do so many things with it.
So yeah. I will be creative and draw a picture and post it on here and see what anyone thinks.
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Well now I'm off to do the dishes my sister was supposed to do.
>_<
And then it's bed time.
Wooo.
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G'night ^_^ | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Well, I'm glad I pushed through my feelings and went to church.
We ended up singing in the main sanctuary which is awesome, since it's bigger, and Dacivian and I got to have our own microphones!
The atmosphere in their is just so much more conducive to a good performance...and I really felt confidant up there......well until Dacivian left the stage to change into her baptism robe......but anyway, I was able to really sing and felt good.
Efrain still plays drums as if he were in a death metal band, which is totally weird if you realized the type of songs we were singing lol, and my left ear felt as if it were about to bleed, but like I said, I'm gonna keep pushing through this.
Service was good and we're all going to Starbucks on Wednesday for fellowship so I'm looking forward to that.
We ended up going to Jumbo Buffet for lunch after church when I wasn't expecting to go anywhere, so that was nice.
Dacivian and I felt like randomly faking a cat fight in the buffet line and while I don't believe we were all that convincing, being unable to keep straight faces and all, it was amusing seeing people look at us funny.
On our way driving to drop me off at home, I remembered that I didn't have Valeria's report with me.........their printer hasn't been working so Val asked me to print it out for her and bring it with me.
So I said I'd call later and either drive by and drop it off or have Dac's mom come and pick it up. I wasn't about to have her do that, so I planned on going.
Anyway, long story short, my mom had to go out anyway to pick the sibs up from a friend's house, so it was convenient for us to drop the report off then.
I went up to Dacivian's house and saw a man working on it. I didn't know who he was so asked if Dacivian was home. He politely said "one moment"...and he went around the back and disappeared for a minute or two. When he came back he gestured at me to go back there also.
I went back and went up to a door that was open and Dacivian's dad was standing inside and gestured for me to come in.
So I came in and he yelled something to Dacivian in Spanish....I figured he told her to come out cause I was there or something so I waited in their living room for her to come out.
Well lol, he either didn't say anything about me being there or Dacivian didn't hear him, because when Val, followed by Dacivian, and then her mother came out of their rooms, they shrieked in both surprise and confusion lol.
Why was I standing in their living room?
Well anyway, it was hilarious, and once I explained how I got there in the first place all was okay.
I gave her the report and went home........well not before Dacivian gave me an impromptu tour of her home [as she's been to my house but I had yet to go to her's]....in those few minutes I even got to see baby pictures of her, and my goodness, she was like the most adorable baby I have ever seen.
I love you Daci lol.
We went home to dinner made specially by Dad and mom and I went walking to the bay right after.
All in all, a nice evening it was.
Today I slept until noon, and quite accidentally.
Anyway, started my day off with iced coffee and some online time. Will be spending the rest of my afternoon and early evening studying and working out.
Will probably be seeing aunt Suzanne and the Jewish grandmother this week, as she's in town.
Have to prepare for that.
And well, that's all for now.....
Tonight's 24.........yay o_o
Better start getting interesting.
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